I am learning more and more each day the importance of
action-reflection-action, meditation, stillness, and breathing. Life is not about doing for the sake of
doing; satisfying the ego which is never satisfied. Life is about living. Living is about breathing. Life is about give and take; you breathe in
that which sustains you and you breathe out that which you don’t need. If this process doesn't happen in our daily
activities, at some point, you will burn out. Or, you may be overcome
by the things that are detrimental to you.
I recently attended a ministerial retreat led by my
Pastor/boss. The main focus of the
retreat was self-care. One comment that
resonated with me was this: “We laud people doing the things that kill them.” At
a funeral, we celebrate all of her great works: she was always there for
others, she worked extremely hard, and she was always serving the community and
putting others first. And then we eulogize their works after a massive stroke,
untreated disease, poor eating habits, stress, and lack of self-care as a
result of the said work.
Self-care is as important in our daily routine as is
breathing. If one doesn't care for self,
how can one care for others. Care, in
this statement, can be substituted with love, honor, respect, compassion,
patience, and peace. Self-care is the
fuel of life. It is the breath of our
dreams. It is the sustainer of present
in order to make it to our future.
I have lost my dreams.
I have become a giver and not a receiver. I have become lost in the busy-ness of life
that I failed to handle the business of my life which is self-care. My hopes and dreams are out there in the
universe waiting for me to keep still to in order to see it and receive
it. Dreams are born out of
circumstance. Yes, how can one dream if
one focuses on the circumstance instead of the promise? Living in the moment is
about realizing who you are as a foundation of what’s to come. Living in the moment is about knowing “I Am”
and will be. Living in the moment is
about envisioning your future, hopes and dreams as you live today taking the
steps to make it to tomorrow. Tomorrow is making dreams come true. Tomorrow is not promised so I live life to
the fullest today charting my path for a possible tomorrow. Tomorrow is about dreaming and dreaming big;
knowing that all things are possible in Christ.
I must know it, believe it, and behave like I am a part of the divine
universe; giving and taking while pausing for a moment to realize and enjoy the
moment.
I have lost my dreams; my hope for tomorrow; my vision to
see the new thing G-d is doing. So, I
will stop, breathe, set boundaries, take care of self by making me a priority,
and serve like Jesus would. Then, and
only then, will I invigorate my ability to dream and dream big!
Ready to dream again!
And it
does not yet appear what I shall be…
Never Hopeless...Always Searching!
