#morningreflection
Do I really Love G-d?
I sat in a room yesterday with approximately 40 homeless men during Bible study. I was blessed and really had to check myself in that moment. Did I really believe that a homeless person couldn't love G-d, know Jesus, state the scriptures emphatically??? Homeless and they love G-d! Homeless and human! Homeless and spirit-filled. No home, no food, somewhat clean or not so clean clothing, health and mental challenges...yet they love G-d.
Do I love G-d when I don't have food on my table?
I often hear communal prayers that say Lord you put food on our table and we thank you yet you don't know my story
Do I love G-d when I awake in the morning but 22 years ago my mama and six years ago my daddy did and then died suddenly?
I often experience a prayer of thanksgiving for waking up as if dieing is not a blessing
Do I love G-d when my bank account doesn't support my bills
I often hear communal prayers of thanksgiving and supplication as it relates to money and the crowd goes wild...
Do I love G-d when witnessing our young sisters and brothers die at the hands of law enforcement
In my experience, we tend to thank G-d for protecting our young people who survived another day as if G-d was not with Trayvon, Michael, Marvin, Sandra, Jessica...
Do I love G-d when I don't know or don't understand or when things just aren't going "right?"
Can I love G-d when homeless
Can I love G-d when economically challenged
Can I love G-d during the hurt and pain caused by others
Can I love G-d when things go awry
Can I love G-d when I go through the day hungry
Can I love G-d when my spouse or significant other is unfaithful
Can I love G-d when I awake in a shelter
Can I love G-d while sitting in a Bible study for the homeless as a homeless person
My G-d, if I pimped your Love please forgive me! If I put limits and boundaries on your blessings please forgive me! If I put your power, Love, provision, grace, and mercy in a box aligned with fleshly desires, please forgive me! If I haven't loved you beyond my status and what I have, please forgive me!
G-d give me the tenacity to love beyond the flesh, beyond the material, beyond my limiting beliefs, beyond our ignorance! Lord, help me to Love you with all of our heart, soul, and mind which is not contingent upon ego, flesh, and material items. G-d of mercy and G-d of grace, help me to see you in all things and in all things give thanks for you are all knowing, all powerful, and ever present. Help me to present myself in a posture to allow your word to manifest. For it is you who said You will make rivers in the desert! It is You who said I am about to do a new thing do you perceive it! It is you who sent Your only begotten son to die and rise for my sins and transgressions. It is you who knew me before I was formed in our mother's womb and created me with a purpose to Love you and serve others! It is you who spoke and life was created!
So I come to you thanking You for being You ~ trusting You to do what you said you would do ~ asking for forgiveness as I forgive others ~ repenting in order to grow closer to you ~ praising You for this moment for it is by your grace and divine mercy I am living and breathing and allowed to experience another day in your glory.
I really do love you Lord ~ unconditionally, positively, and with regard to your essence of Love and Life! In all things, situations, and circumstances, I really do love you Lord!
Signed,
Your daughter, a sinner saved by Your grace, Tawana
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